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This makes me want to cry
For the last two or three years I have felt stuck. Stuck in this small town (don’t get me wrong, I love this town. But I hate it), stuck in my parents’ house (the home I grew up in), stuck in my career with no way of moving up or moving on to bigger and better things, stuck living pay check to pay check because I’m buddies in student loans. Stuck.
I have spent countless hours and tears racking my brain, carefully calculating my next step. I couldn’t just plunge into something without thinking it through (you see, I’ve always felt that in high school and college we are rushed and pushed to become something, even if we haven’t yet truly figured out what we want that something to be).
Maybe I’ll combine my love for art or music and my desire to do something more meaningful and go back to school for Art or Music Therapy, I thought. Maybe I will abandon graphic design all together, I thought. Then, I moved on to considering a career as an art teacher or graphic design professor.
Then, today, I realized something important. The first step to accomplishing any of these things is to go back to school for my master’s degree. Today, I realized that I was only trying to abandon graphic design in a fit of sheer panic because I thought if I didn’t love it in my current position, I would never love it. I was wrong. I could love it if I had a stronger, more well-rounded background in graphic design. I could love it if I was designing for something I care about at a place that thrives on creativity. I could absolutely love it.
So, today, I decided that I am going to apply to graduate school for the spring 2015 semester to get my MFA in Graphic Design (my dream school on the list is Savannah College of Art & Design). From there I can move up in my marketing career in graphic design or I could teach graphic design to kids or at the college level. The point is that I don’t have to decide that part right now. I have plenty of time to figure that out.
Now, I cross my fingers that I get in to my dream school, that they offer enough financial aid to me, and that I can find a job in Savannah or grad assistantship at SCAD (or whatever city I end up in and school I end up going to).